I find myself forgetting how soothing writing is for me.This last year and a half has really been one for the books, and not all in the best of ways. I started 2020 off complaining about needing my freedom like many others (thanks a lot pandemic.) While I was missing the freedom of the outside…
I wanted to say something about you the other day, but I just couldn’t. All the years I grew up without either parent I never worried too much because I always knew I had you by my side. It’s weird not to have that comfort anymore. You were like my security blanket growing up, and…
So as some of you may know I find stretching myself so far thin on projects/hobbies very comforting lol (seriously I love torturing myself apparently) Recently I took up crocheting. It’s seriously not as easy as I thought it would be. My first blanket… did not turn out how I had hoped. I spent countless…
I feel like that’s the most accurate way of describing having anxiety, and depression. It’s like a bomb going off, hitting every corner of your mind. Shocking your body with a wave of pain, and then NOTHING. Having to force yourself out of bed everyday because it’s not just about you. Waking up feels hard,…
You know when you just need time? Time to process whatever it is that you’ve said, or done? That’s what I needed this past year. 2019 was a year of lessons, and time to let go of things that I no longer needed. I didn’t need to continue to carry all of the baggage that…
It was a day like any other. The skies were a beautiful pale grey, the air was cold and crisp. All of the trees were dancing, and swaying with the breeze. The leaves rustling, cracking like a calming melody. Little did I know it was going to be one of many other days that would…
I look back on this every day, and think why did I do this again? I want to be able to go back, and show my kids look what your weird mom did. I can already hear zay’s smart ass comments in my head (def my child lol.) This is important though because this is…
Can you believe I never wanted kids? I never felt that was ever my role in life. In fact I never really understood kids. They were the strangest little beings to me. They’re the most honest critics. Like how could I learn to tame that? LOL What would I say if something was wrong, or…
I stepped away for awhile shortly after starting this, and I don’t want it to be one of those things that’s short lived. I’m still here. I’ve been open with the topic of mental health, and I’ve just gotten comfortable with discussing my own. As of late my mental health just started to decline, and…
Have you ever wanted something so badly, but when you got it it wasn’t what you expected at all? Fixated on this thing we want, or NEED. So frustrated when you can’t have it then and there. You keep going on in your head about all of the plans you have when you finally come…
Accio Chaos 