I stepped away for awhile shortly after starting this, and I don’t want it to be one of those things that’s short lived. I’m still here. I’ve been open with the topic of mental health, and I’ve just gotten comfortable with discussing my own.

As of late my mental health just started to decline, and it hit me like a ton of bricks. I’ve always been one to keep things to myself whenever I’m going through it. It’s very hard for me to be open, and honest about things when it comes to my own issues.

Recently I’ve been suffering the worst panic attacks. It’s always hard for me to cope with my anxiety after not having it for awhile. It just pops back up out of no where, and it’s literally crippling for me to deal with sometimes. It’s hard for me not to feel like a broken record when bringing it up at times, and I know A LOT of people can unfortunately relate to this.

Discussing mental health shouldn’t be that way, you already feel like sh*t, and it’s okay to bring it up if you’re comfortable. If people don’t understand then educate them, and if they still don’t want to hear it then honestly F*CK THEM, and surround yourself with more positive people.

I don’t want my anxiety to own me, or my life. Lately it’s been hard for me to get out of bed in the mornings, to sleep at night, and the biggest one of all is remembering things. Brain fog is f*cking real. It’s depressing. Even more so when you have little people depending on you.

These are my own experiences with coping, and this is what’s worked for me recently. I’m not going to say they work 100% of the time, but they do help majority of the time. So I figured I’d share for others who may be going through a rough patch;

1. Grounding exercises. Count anything you can touch, or see to bring you back to reality. I count up to 5 things.
2. Take slow deep breaths, clear everything from your mind, and focus on breathing.
3. Take some time to yourself, take a bath, read a book, anything you like doing.
4. Get lost into playing with your kids, or anyone in general. Talking, laughing, coloring etc..

It’s been rough on ya girl, and weighing on me HEAVILY, but I’m stronger than this bullsh*t. I won’t let it win this time around. I’m also really lucky to have such a loving person by my side. I’m not doing this alone, and although it seems that way I have to remind myself of that everyday. I’m not alone, you’re not alone. Its hard not being myself, but having to act like everything is okay. I have to tell myself It’s okay to have days when you’re not okay.

“I’m not alone, you’re not alone.”

I can’t f*cken stress this enough CHECK ON YOUR FRIENDS/FAMILY, and just try not being a sh*tty human being. Reach out especially if you haven’t heard from them in awhile. Everything may seem okay on the outside, but you never know what they’re dealing with on the inside.

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